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February 11th, 2009
05:26 pm - Facebook Killed My Ability to Write So, my respite from LJ was longer than I had planned. Things aren't consistently as bad as they were when I decided to stop writing for a bit, but Facebook's constant little updates have made it harder and harder for me find deeper, more meaningful, and lengthier topics to write about. I am not proud of this, but it is true.
I am happy to elaborate on most anything at this point, so if you want to know about something, please ask. Meanwhile, I am really happy to continue to read my Friends' posts, so thank you for providing that extra bit of happiness to me on a semi-regular basis.
Otherwise, I am actively seeking a real estate attorney... and I would really need a good one, not just some random out of the yellow pages version. If you have a recommendation, I'm all eyes.
I hope to get the writing bug back soon... When I do, you'll be the first to see... Current Mood: okay
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December 6th, 2008
10:26 pm - My holiday "plan" In a follow-up to my "Friends Only" previous post, I'm posting this to "Everyone", since I know I have a few friend lurkers. The summary being that this past year has not been too positive. In an effort to turn things in a more positive direction, I have decided to try and volunteer over the holidays this year. It will be the first time I don't have a Christmas since I got married in the first place (we still sort of had one even though we weren't "together" for the past few years). And though I'm not Christian, it did become a tradition that I think I will miss. So, I will try to do something productive, try to boost the good kharma a little. I'm soliciting suggestions.
Similarly, I am EXTREMELY minimizing my card and gift lists this year. Should you be one of those who does not hear personally from me, know that I think of all my friends often, and you are not forgotten. However, I am opting out of stamps and cards and gifts to people who, for the most part, like me, need nothing more than good friends and good conversation, and time to tend to both. I am instead opting toward a larger gift to charities this year. I'm still figuring out which ones, but am leaning toward Leukemia & Lymphoma research (on behalf of my mother), and probably an organization dealing with wildlife (as wildlife has given me much more pleasure than humans for much of my life in general, and recently in particular). I encourage you all to do the same. If anyone is thinking of me, I'd love a phone call or a visit, but other than some better kharma and more time with friends and family, there is nothing material that I am lacking (except for perhaps a GPS, which I am planning on gifting to myself this year).
I wish you all the best of health and happiness this holiday season and always. Current Mood: cold
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November 14th, 2008
11:35 pm - Better, sort of Had an AWFUL work week, but I am feeling better after a friend forced me out last night after work. That's twice I've needed the nudge to put work 2nd, and twice it's paid off. If only I could recruit these friends to pester me every day, I might actually have a life.
In any case, I had a wonderful dinner last night with a friend and her friend and I felt like a million bucks when I got home at 11:30pm, even after a grueling week. It was just such good conversation and exchnage of ideas, I can't wait to do it again! And tonight I went out for dinner with my new roomie and she finally showed me what she's been constructing in the basement. There has been a lot of woodwork and activity the past week, but it was supposed to be a "surprise." I was sure she was making a platform to raise her bed off the floor, and she let me believe it. But holy cow!! was I surprised when today I saw her new desk. She made it fit into the tiny room like a built-in and re-arranged the whole room around it. It's fantastic. And she did it all by herself after work on her own... in a week. I feel so lazy and untalented. While I am utterly impressed with my roommate, man I wish I knew how to do stuff like that. She said she just teaches herself. Think of it, and then just figure it out. My first problem: thinking of it. It's fantastic! and yet I wouldn't have thought of it in a million years. I lived in that dinky awful room for 2 years and in a week she made it an amazing living space. I am so jealous! Current Mood: impressed
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11:27 pm - D.C. I don't think I've ever heard traffic reports that mention street closures and traffic snarls due to "Transition Headquarters activities"... until now. Oh, it's gonna be a fun few months. And I say that with sincerity. The other great thing about being in DC during this exciting time is that apparently I get Inauguration Day off of work. Now, if only I could score tickets!
In other DC news, my Protest of the Week is hitting a very important chord this weekend, as the No on H8 campaign is taking it from the Capitol to the White House. I haven't yet decided if I'm willing to brave the cold and rain. I know it's important enough to. I'm just feeling a bit under the weather and have been working like a dog and have to still for the next 6 weeks and a little afraid of running myself into the ground. I know, a small price to pay for such an important message. And yet, still bitter on the whole marriage thing, I'm having a little trouble motivating in general, despite the fact that this discriminatory proposition angers and saddens me so much at the same time. I feel quite hypocritical and guilty for even considering bailing on the event. And yet, something tells me I'll be watching on TV.
Update 11/15: Heh, heh... Guess I overlooked a little economic summit also happening today with most of the world's leaders. Indeed, a DC day after all. Speaking of a DC day, I'm sure the protest against H8 must have been mostly rained out in the DC area, so I don't think I missed too much. Instead I've been focussing back to L.A., where I hear my folks are as close to evacuating for fires as they've ever been before. I think they're safe, but they're definitely breathing smoke. Current Mood: lethargic
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November 5th, 2008
03:22 pm - No Words, Part 2 Earlier, no words for my mouth. Later, no words for my eyes. On the way to work, there wasn't a single newspaper to be found. Not even the discarded commuter papers you find all over the metro or in the recylce bins. None in the news racks on my walk in. None on my lunchtime walk in a 12+ block radius that I wandered, including at the Post headquarters just 2 blocks from my work. None at the newstand. None at the CVS. Borders bookstore even had a sign on the door turning people away saying "We have NO U.S. newspapers in stock at all." It was 2:30pm and I must have run into dozens of other people still trying to find one. Shows you what an historic day this is. Shows you that you should always purchase a newspaper subscription in advance of any potentially historic day.
Too bad no one working was aware how valuable a commodity these papers had become. When I got back to the office, I noticed the daily paper sitting in it's spot on the filing cabinet where no one had yet to pay attention. I asked where the daily paper goes every day and they told me they recyle it. I asked if I could have it, and they said "sure." Last copy in the whole city, I bet! :) Current Mood: lucky
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12:59 pm - No Words I am utterly speechless today on this glorious of days. Tears of joy listening to Obama's speech last night. Sadness over the news of Prop 8. But otherwise, speechless and awed. Current Mood: optimistic
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November 4th, 2008
09:21 am - Democracy in Action Today, I woke really darn early, waited in line for [only] an hour, after parking my car a block away from a family of 5 deer grazing on a front lawn, amidst the most beautiful fall leaves I've seen gathered in one block, walked past a PTA bake sale at the school where I cast my vote for the next President of the United States (which, although I rarely like to discuss my political views, especially publicly, will proudly proclaim was for Barack Obama), put on my "I Voted/Yo Vote" sticker, got to the Metro early amidst signs offering free rides to polling places, and was greeted at work by a co-worker's email offering rides to polls for a vendor of ours who is running late for a session because their employee was voting this morning. :) Current Mood: proud
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September 28th, 2008
05:40 pm - Armpits Did you know that your armpits are connected to muscles in your back? Did you know that if you work your back really hard, your armpits will hurt? Or, for that matter, every muscle in your entire body from the waist up and neck down. Guess I did well when I picked my knee-recovery sport of rowing, but MAN am I achy (and stiff) today! Current Mood: sore
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September 25th, 2008
09:51 pm - Guess Who I Didn't See? Leaving work, across the street a crowd was forming. News trucks, security and a lot of people. Located across from my building is the famous/infamous Mayflower Hotel, home to the Spitzer and Lewinsky sex scandals. Anyway, today, a mere few hundred feet away, stood the building, inside of which stood Senator Barack Obama. A few hundred feet and yet miles away. He didn't come out in the time I happened to pass. Would have been cool, but that's not the first time. Same thing happened a few months ago, at the same place, when I didn't see Hillary. Current Mood: disappointed
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September 24th, 2008
01:42 pm - Jinxed Again Ernie is apparently as social to other animals as my cat is. And so, 2 more dead snails today. Sunny and Slick barely had a chance. And Ernie's on my shit list. Current Mood: annoyed
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September 23rd, 2008
10:06 pm - September 23 I know I'm tired when I try to exit the Metro Station's turnstile by using my car's FOB.
I swam 1/2 mile (OK, doesn't sound like a lot, but for me, it IS) and that made me feel better about my half class of rowing last week. Don't feel like getting into it, but let's just say pretty soon I'm going to need a discussion with the rowing people about overbooking and fair use. We only rowed on Sunday because I went to my first Regatta on Saturday. Maybe by this time next year, I'll actually be racing in it!
Anyway, today's my mom's birthday... and I admit I was really disappointed that she had to spend her birthday in chemo. But, she did get a present after all. She is in remission! She still has to finish the last 3 chemo treatments, but early remission is a very good sign for future health. And she is now cancer-free!
And today I brought Ernie a gift too. 2 new snails for his tank. Slick and Sunny took over the tank very quickly and are very active for snails. Ernie seemed to be quite scared at first, but I think everyone will be happy to have some company. Current Mood: tired
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September 19th, 2008
04:41 pm - I am Jinxed After yesterday's post, a quick equivalent of a pat on the head (i.e. a rub of the glass), and a "You look so much better, buddy. Good boy!," I went to lunch and returned to find that Bert had actually passed this time. My boss took care of the dirty work, said a few non-denominational words, and Bert left the building. Current Mood: blah
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September 18th, 2008
02:25 pm - It's a Miracle I can't believe it's over a week later, and little Bert is hanging in there. He actually has seemed over the past few days to the point where I think maybe he just had a little cold. Poor little guy. Anyway, he still looks like he could use a bit more strength, but he no longer is stuck floating rear up, and he actually swims around every once in a while. Guess it's a good thing I didn't flush him. Current Mood: busy
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September 17th, 2008
02:09 pm - I am SO screwed up I rarely remember my dreams, but last night, I remembered this one. I was watching my pet komodo dragon in it's glass aquarium. He looked like a little T-rex, but kind of cute. Then I noticed my cat was in there with the komodo, and she was trying to sleep all cuddled in a ball next to the dragon. I think my dad asked why she'd cuddle with the dragon, it wasn't very soft and cuddly and I remember thinking it's all she has, she'll take what she can get. My dad was watching me play with them, and then I remember thinking that even though the dragon was kind of cute, it was still very dangerous and my dad should be careful, and so should the cat. Just then, the dragon and the cat mysteriously escaped the glass aquarium and the komodo ran off somewhere, and I started chasing after the cat. As I ran after her, I noticed the cutest baby lamb off the side, just sitting there, as if smiling. My cat ran to the edge of the property and dove into a swamp. I dove in after her and got there just in time to see her sink in, but the water was too murky to see anything and I couldn't duck my head under because I wear contacts and if I opened my eyes I would lose them. I called my dad over and he jumped in to help. I don't know if we were successful. I woke up.
As random as all of this might seem, it makes SO much sense. I'm working on a show about T-Rex dinosaurs, and they are working on a model of a baby T-rex. Though I haven't seen it, this project has been a pain, so it's probably in my subconscious somewhere. Join that with the fact that I've been in a cuddly mood but there's nothing available in that regard and maybe I should take what I can get, but that could be dangerous in some ways in the long run. And I'm trapped in this job and just want to escape. Not to mention the worry over my frogs in their glass aquarium and how they're doing. And then, yesterday, on my drive home, I passed the cutest little deer who just seemed to be staring at me, smiling. And yes, I feel like I'm drowning at my job and could use some help... and don't know how any of it will turn out. Current Mood: weird
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September 15th, 2008
09:52 pm - Plagiarized, but... Most of you will probably get this in the usual email chains if you haven't already, but to me, this one is so worth posting. I don't know the author, but this is great:
"Let me see if I have this straight...
*If you grow up in Hawaii, raised by your grandparents, you're "exotic, different." *If you grow up in Alaska eating mooseburgers, you're a quintessential American story.
*If your name is Barack, you're a radical, unpatriotic Muslim. *If you name your kids Willow, Trig, Bristol, and Track, you're a Maverick.
*If you graduate from Harvard Law School, you are unstable. *If you attennd 5 different small colleges before graduating, you're well-rounded.
*If you spend 3 years as a brilliant community organizer, become the first black President of the Harvard Law Review, create a voter registration drive that registers 150,000 new voters, spend 12 years as a Constitutional Law professor, spend 8 years as a State Senator representing a district with over 750,000 people, become chairman of the state Senate's Health and Human Services committee, spend 4 years in the United States Senate representing a state of 13 million people while sponsoring 131 bills and serving on the Foreign Affairs, Environment and Public Works and Veteran's Affairs committees, you don't have any real leadership experience. *If your total resume is: local weather girl, 4 years on the city council and 6 years as the mayor of a town with less than 7,000 people, and 20 months as the governor of a state with only 650,000 people, then you're qualified to become the country's second highest ranking executive.
*If you have been married to the same woman for 19 years while raising 2 beautiful daughters, all within Protestant churches, you're not a real Christian. *If you cheated on your first wife with a rich heiress, left your disfigured wife and married the heiress the next month, you're a Christian.
*If you teach responsible, age appropriate sex education, including the proper use of birth control, you are eroding the fiber of society. *If, while governor, you staunchly advocate abstinence only, with no other option in sex education in your state's school system while your unwed teen daughter ends up pregnant, you're very responsible.
*If your wife is a Harvard graduate lawyer who gave up a position in a prestigious law firm to work for the betterment of her inner city community, then gave that up to raise a family, your family's values don't represent America's. *If your husband is nicknamed "First Dude", with at least one DWI conviction and no college education, who didn't register to vote until age 25 and once was a member of a group that advocated the secession of Alaska from the USA, your family is extremely admirable.
OK, much clearer now."
Current Mood: scared
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September 14th, 2008
09:25 pm - Bert is Dying
Bert is dying. In fact, by the time I see him again, he might very well be dead. For those of you who don't remember, Bert is the skinnier, paler of my 2 office pets, and he was NOT doing well last week. I contacted the company who was sure my description of his behavior was normal. After having the frogs since April, I assured them it is not. He is floating, which they DO in fact do a lot. But he physically couldn't sink. He was stuck at the top, every time trying to go down, his rear section lifting him in the air, as if he were wearing a flotation device down there.
Poor guy, I was sure he would be dead by the time I got to work on Thursday, but Thursday morning I discovered that only Siskel and Ebert were dead (the snails). I was worried about the balance in the tank, but the company said the snails just help clean up stuff, but they are not essential for the frogs' lives. Weird, though, since they seemed fine the previous week as well. But Thursday, poor Bert was floating, looking almost dead, and I debated putting him out of his misery but just couldn't bring myself to take his life. Surely by Friday nature would have taken care of it. But no.. he hung in there on Friday and, though he still hadn't eaten anything, he had swam down to the bottom and was holding himself down by latching one of his webbed feet into the rocks at the bottom. He lost his grip once and floated back up, but immediately tried to swim down and grab it again. I know he's not long for this world, but Ernie just sits, eats all the food and is absolutely no help. That could explain why Ernie is now almost 3 times the size of Bert and looks quite buff and healthy.
Anyway, I'm not looking forward to checking in tomorrow. Plus, I don't really have the time to deal with this at work. At least not right now. And what do I do with Ernie alone in the tank once this happens? Do I get him new snails and change his water, or do I think I just let him ride it out and consider this aquarium experience near an end? I mean, I'll change the water, but I can't while Bert's still there, and do I really want to start from scratch with new snails? It was fun while it lasted... but not quite sure. Funny, though, I'm not at all attached like I would be to a pet in my home like my beloved cat, but I did get used to checking in on my office buddies, and I do admit, it's hard to watch poor Bert suffer. Current Mood: sleepy
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08:22 pm - Row, Row, Row Your Boat It was a HOT weekend, and I'm not complaining one bit. After a very fall-like August, I am thrilled to realize that this year did not pass without any summer-like weather. Meanwhile, leaves are piling up in the yard, so I'm trying to enjoy it as much as possible.
Yesterday I began my rowing class. Not exactly what I was waiting to hear, the instructors informed us that "many people believe rowing is an arm sport, but it's really more of a leg sport." Uh oh. But so far, so good with the knee and we'll see how it goes. Meanwhile, all the people going in and out of the rowhouse had the hottest legs, abs and shoulders I've seen in quite a long time, so no complaints here!
Yesterday we got the introduction, safety video, a glossary of terms, learned how to lift the shell, worked on the ergs (indoor rowing machines) for quite a while, and got a short little introduction on barges. So far, so good. Today, we did about an hour and a half on the ergs, and an hour or so on the river in the barges. I think we get into the real shells next week. In 95 degree weather with high humidity, it was quite hot but I really enjoyed it, and the people so far are extremely nice. I admit it's a pricey sport and I'm a little worried I'm making friends and learning a sport right before it shuts down for the winter, but I hope to make some friends that might tell me what they do in the winter. I'm feeling quite bad about my social life lately and really need have some energy imported into that area. I have an unreciprocated crush on the roomie moving in in November, and so I really need to find a distraction before then so I can enjoy the company without feeling TOO bad about the rest. Rowing isn't soccer, but I'm enjoying it so far, it's a distraction from work, good exercise, and yet again the opportunity to learn something new, which I always enjoy! :) Current Mood: accomplished
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September 3rd, 2008
09:48 pm - Taking a Break... from watching the mind-numbing RNC to ponder the fact that swimming is hard. Yes, it's hard. Why? Because when you're out of shape, sometimes you can push through the huffing and puffing on the soccer field or even on the elliptical, but when you huff and puff in the water, or at least when I do, I nearly drown. Which means, so far, I can't push as hard. Which doesn't mean I don't burn calories. But I probably means I don't burn enough to justify my new appetite and consequential new "diet."
Current Mood: tired
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September 1st, 2008
08:05 pm - No, no, NOOOOOO!!!!!! As I sat outside enjoying a book, some heat (finally), and the gnawing of mosquitoes on my legs, I saw a leaf fall from the sky. Then another, then another. They were brown and when I looked around the yard, they were accumulating. Not fair. Current Mood: pouty
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August 26th, 2008
03:38 pm - No Longer Forever Young After 3 orthopedists, 2 radiologists, and a physical therapist (or two), it appears I'm just old and my knees will keep getting worse. I swear, all the extra visits were out of optimism. I wasn't going to let anyone tell me what I couldn't do. I'm tough, I like to play hard, I want to stay active, I didn't want to take no for an answer.
But alas, when combining all of the feedback, here is the consensus:
The tear is quite significant. Arthroscopy can be tried, but once they get in, it's quite possible a large portion of the meniscus would have to be removed, which will not repair itself. It would not mean I would be without pain, and would likely cause early arthritis. Most have suggested I just deal with it until the pain is not liveable, THEN get surgery. It's not like if I were 15, where they'd recommend I get it right away so I can heal quickly and get right out there again. At my age, even though I'm not "old", I'm old enough that this isn't good. It's not that I'm older than a lot of others who I know have had this surgery, it's just that there is a potential to make things worse, so the consensus is to let it go as long as possible at this level before opening it up to potentially worse. Then, once this is worse, have surgery and hopefully make it better.
And more of a bummer.... rowing is probably out too. I was thinking of beginning rowing next month. Found a class, tried it out, it's really neat. But now I need a new activity. This sucks. I hate being confined. And yeah, I've been swimming, but breaststroke is out too.
However, if I do want to try surgery eventually, I think I've narrowed down the best of the bunch re: knees and arthroscopy. Anyway, I should be grateful I can do anything, but I'm still really bummed out. This sucks. I thought mind over matter might win out, but it looks like not this time. Current Mood: old lady blues
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